Yesterday, I had a 3-mile run on the schedule. Simple enough, short, not a problem. I decided to do it in the evening after work because I was doing laundry in the morning and didn’t have any clean running clothes to wear.
Often when I schedule an evening run, I spend much of my afternoon at work looking forward to it. However, yesterday, as early as maybe 2 o’clock, I was already starting to think about how I didn’t want to run. I was tired, I just wanted to be lazy, I had other plans I would rather spend more time on… etc, etc.
I used a lot of mental energy arguing with myself about whether to run. I knew I was more likely to do the run than to skip it because it was on my schedule and one thing I am pretty good at is sticking to a training plan. Still, there was probably 30% of me that didn’t want to do it. Or should I say, didn’t FEEL LIKE doing it.
In the process of eliminating that 30% that said “no, don’t run,” I focused a lot on asking myself whether I didn’t want to run, or whether I just didn’t feel like running. I WANTED to run because I want to reach my goals. I’m not going to get faster by skipping scheduled runs because I’m lazy, and I might finish a marathon that way, but it sure as hell won’t be pretty. No, I just didn’t FEEL LIKE running yesterday. There is a big difference, at least to me. In fact, I found myself wishing that I did feel like running. So, I focused on my goals and on the big picture, I laced up my big-girl shoes, and I ran.
I put it off as long as possible. I ate dinner as soon as I got home from work a little after five, I took a nap and stayed in bed until seven… and then I got up, got changed, and got out the door faster than I have in a while. I started really slowly because I wanted to be as comfortable as possible, since I didn’t really feel like being out there. I figured I would run 10:15s and hope that felt okay in the heat (it was 82). I texted Matt to tell him that I brought my phone because my heart wasn’t in the run. He promised to send me plenty of good vibes. 🙂 Apparently he actually sent me a Snapchat, but I didn’t get it until later.
I ended up running into a friend I hadn’t seen in a long while and we ran together for a few minutes before we went our separate ways. It was nice catching up. The conversation got my mind off things and I let myself get pulled to run a little faster than I would have on my own. By the time we split, I was feeling better.
I’m glad I ran. I could easily have justified skipping the run. It’s a down week in the training plan anyway, my leg was a little stiff… But I’m glad I was able to focus on the difference between not wanting to run because I don’t care about reaching my goals (I do care) and not feeling like running on that particular day.
And after, I got to play LEGO Pirates of the Caribbean: The Video Game.